Let It Go!

Well, my boyfriend was nice enough to help me with this one.  I actually never thought I would ever reference Frozen, because its not one of those movies that I find to be as enjoyable as the older ones. But if you couldn't tell from the title, Let it Go was the reference I'm getting from the movie.

So I was talking to my boyfriend about the issues I was having with work, and with my back and all the stress I've got going on in my head.  I was diagnosed with Degenerative Disc Disease and Osteoarthritis at the ripe age of 26 and because of that it's causing limitations at work.  I leave work in severe pain most days.  There is one station that hurts the most at work, and although I have mentioned this to them, they have done nothing to help me not do the same station all the time.  In turn, I leave in severe pain.  Well, I've also now have no choice but to go back to school because of this diagnosis. 

The movie Frozen is a story about Elsa who was born with the ability to control snow.  She can create and move snow, she can do almost anything with snow.  But because of something that happened when her and her sister we small she had to hide from the world her power that would continue to grow.  But when her parents died she had to come out as Queen but still hide her powers.  She goes through some struggles and eventually lets everything go.  She stopped being stressed about holding back from the world who she was.

My comparison to this is with all my stress, my boyfriend told me to Let It Go.  Because of my diagnosis, I have no choice but to go back to school and so with all the thinking I've been doing, I know where and what I'm going to go back for.  I'm going to go to Humber College because it has always been my dream school.  Humber College offers so many different programs, and connects with many different Universities.  I plan to go to Humber to get my Bachelors in Finance. I've looked at the many different schools, and the many different programs that are offered, and since I already went to a school I didn't have any interest in going last time, and I went for something I didn't really want to do, this time I decided I have to go to the school I want for the program I know I can benefit from. 

Now with planning on going to college I also need to plan on how I'm going to be able to go back.  I have to plan to save enough to pay off all my bills and to save for tuition.  It's not easy.  I owe OSAP almost twenty thousand dollars still from the last time I went to school.  I also owe almost twenty thousand for my car as well since I bought that right after I graduated (which was a total mistake).  And I also owe about ten thousand on credit from when I was in school and living away from home.  But I have established that I can pay off all my bills in four years.  But I would have to still work my job for another three to four years if I don't find a different way to earn money.  I can't stay at my job that long because I could very well be cripple in that time. So I actually started a fund on Go Fund Me and hopefully going to get a few donations.  The money that is raised is going straight to tuition and nothing else.  If you feel like donating then here is the link (gofundme.com/mjztt4) although, you don't have to donate, even if you share it on any social media, that would be just as helpful. 

But with all the stress of trying to get out of my job and go back to school, my medical issues are also very stressful.  I am way too young to have the issues with my back that I do, and it has been so hard on me that my boyfriend noticed that I've changed a little bit in my attitude.  So my boyfriend told me that I need to let go of the stress.  So the saying 'Let it Go' really fits the situation.  Nobody should feel stressed about anything, and Although Elsa was stressed on making sure she hid who she was, I'm stressed about how to get somewhere in life.  When Elsa let go of everything and showed her true self she felt better, she needed to 'Let it Go' so that she could learn how to use it effectively.  I need to 'Let it Go' so that I can effectively come up with a plan.  Everyone needs to let go of any stress and let things fall into place.  It opens your mind to allow better ideas enter your mind.  Good things happen when you 'Let it Go'.  

Let it Go and Have a Magical Day!